13 Weeks: On Despair

Week 5 of my second 13 week season; low carb diet and more exercise, tracking my weight, blood glucose, and body fat. You can follow me at my 13 Weeks Facebook page for daily updates, and you can join Fitocracy and follow my daily exercise.

It was hard this week. On Friday morning, I got up and found my 13-year-old Abyssinian cat Radar, apparently peacefully asleep in his favorite spot -- except he didn't look up when I came down the stairs. He had died during the night.

Now, i'm one of those people for whom my cats are like my kids, and Radar hadn't shown a sign of distress the night before -- he met me at the door as usual, fought me for bits of chicken before I was ready as before. So it was a shock. I took care of him, but I was useless the rest of the day, and in fact all weekend. The other two cats -- Ali'i and Kaleo -- were clearly missing him too, and they've been very clingy all week. Still, I think we're all recovering, finally.

Radar -- not a great picture, but he didn't like cameras.

But the week continued to be ridiculously stressful, with work issues and all, and then -- the depression I always have to watch started creeping up on me, probably as a result of stress and poor sleep (and like the old Catskills joke, not only was the sleep bad, there wasn't enough of it!)

And here I am, on week five of the second season.

Sticking to the diet and exercise plan when I feel like this is really tough. I took to putting my workouts in Fitocracy before I did them, because then I'd be too ashamed not to actually do them. Even so, I only worked out four times this week. The stress also apparently affects blood sugar -- the morning Radar died I had the highest blood sugar I've had in weeks at 127 and it's stayed high.

All in all, if I could take a week off from the column I would.

The thing here being that I didn't, and I haven't slipped on the diet anyway -- and really haven't slipped far on the exercise, as I still got in 1093 points, or just 61 fewer than the week before, thanks to having raised the weight I did on my heavy lift days. So my blood sugar is up a little, my weight is actually down a pound from last week (but still basically flat) and my body fat hasn't changed much in a week either.