As a child prodigy, I’d learned that being exceptional in something was barely good enough, and that merely acting like an eight year old when you are an eight year old was a horrible failure — if you were an eight year old taking college classes. As a fat kid, I’d learned that I was disgusting and weird. As a nerdy kid, I’d learned I was disgusting and weird, and heard too often that really smart people went crazy. I learned that if you get a bike for your sixth birthday and don’t learn to ride it quickly enough, it becomes your brother’s bike, and I learned that if you are learning to hit a baseball and hit one so well the ball is lost, you don’t get another ball or another lesson.

I learned to think that to be acceptable meant to be perfect, and I learned that it was hopeless because I could never remain perfect in anyone’s eyes for very long.

Well, in the last 26 weeks, I’ve learned that while not perfect, I have been useful; and I’ve learned that when I help other people with their problems, it helps me too.

So here’s the plan. I’m asking you-all, all my readers who are inclined to try to improve their health, lose weight, start exercising — or improve yourself in other ways, like with Dave Swindle’s 13 week reading program or Sarah Hoyt’s 13 week novel-writing program — to come out about it and make your own 13 week experiment.  I’ll do what I can to help. Tell me what tools you think are useful, and what tools you wish you had. (For example, I’m thinking about a web site where you can track your own 13 week experiment and potentially share it with others — or not.) What do you find easy? What do you find hard?

Do you feel, as I do down deep, that being fat is a moral failing, that having diabetes is not just a disease but a fault?


Date 7 day Weight 7 day Glucose 7 day Bodyfat Sum Fitocracy Points Weekly Fitocracy Points
2013-02-01 272.50 116.43 33.1 447 447
2013-02-07 272.63 114.57 30.79% 1881 1881
2013-02-14 271.91 110.43 30.36% 2606 725
2013-02-21 273.79 115.29 29.16% 3775 1169
2013-02-28 274.44 104.00 30.00% 4929 1154
2013-03-07 273.11 115.86 30.24% 6022 1093
2013-03-14 269.86 101.86 30.10% 7233 1211
2013-03-21 272.08 112.25 30.64% 7681 448
2013-03-28 270.57 113.86 30.26% (??) 8180 499
2013-04-04 271.31 103.86 29.95% (??) 8404 224
2013-04-11 275.20 109.57 29.80% (??) 9185 781
2013-04-18 273.97 111.86 (??) 9185 0
2013-04-25 270.09 111.43 (??) 9185 0
2013-05-02 271.17 115.86 (??) 9185 0
Δ since 2-1 -1.33 -0.57 (??)% N/A N/A