I used to sell drugs, and recently gave up the street life. When I was a street punk I had more women then I could handle, Now that I have an education and a head on my shoulders, I couldn’t find a decent woman if my life depended on it.
The women I would pick up, where very beautifull and successfull young women. Not street trash. I had career women cheat on their successfull fiance’s for me, the street punk. I’m not proud of that, thats why I changed.
It makes me sick to my stomach. When I was the bad boy, I had more relationship prospects then I could ever imagine. The worse I treated the women I was with, the more they loved me. As soon as I would show the smallest bit of love towards them, they would get repulsed and run away.
Now that (only a year later) I am educated with a promising career, and treating Women and myself with respect, I can’t find a decent woman. They all want the assholes. I don’t respect that, and can’t marry a woman that wants an asshole. I don’t know what to do. If they want to end up with the jerks then let them. I’ll wait untill i find a decent kind hearted girl, and try to not go bankrupt when she leaves me for some street thug
I want to get married, but can’t be the bad boy anymore. I guess I’ll have to wait till I’m older and established and find a decent younger lady before she is ruined by some asshole drug dealer.
