#140 candi:
“Bilgeman used the word with so much anger and hate. He used it in a mean way.”
If I’m negative with you, it’s because your actions disgust me.
The consequences of those actions, some of which I’ve shared, anger me.
And your attitude enrages me because it is a ready-made rationalization for the next “young and stupid” candi, (your description of yourself to TK, not mine), to get herself into circumstances just like yours are now.
Isn’t that REALLY what you’re trying to do here?
I’m a seaman, toots, I’ve spent decades working around alcoholics…hard-core, “no stops on the throttles” binge-drunkards.
You know what an alcoholic hates worse than anything?
Having to drink alone.
See, when he’s surrounded by other people who are imbibing a cold one, he can fool himself into feeling normal…BECAUSE he’s surrounded with other people who are also drinking.
When they get to the point where they NEED to drink alone to keep the “bugs in the bulkheads and the snakes in the deckplates”…those boys are on their last lap,
That’s what your attitude and your rationalizations are trying to accomplish here, whether you realize it or not.
Frankly kiddo, I’ve written you off…you didn’t figure it out after one bastard, and still didn’t RTFM after number two…or THREE.
But there’s hope for the younger ones. Perhaps I can toss ‘em a line so that they don’t hit the reef the first time, nd if they have run aground once, they dope out how to stay off it again.
Quite honestly, from what I’ve observed being “nice” and “considerate” and “diplomatic” to people who are engaged in doing unbelievably stupid and harmful things is a waste of time.
You want someone to kiss your behind and sweet-talk you and cajole you…you can find enough of that in our society.
They’re usually trying to sell you something, so they’ll reinforce any bullshit notions that might be rattling around up inside your coconut…just as long as you buy the cosmetics and the garments they advertise.
I reckon that harshly thumping ‘em upside the nugget with the naked and ugly truth is the more productive route.
I could GAS about your “self-esteem”…you haven’t any. And likewise i could GAS for your “feelings”, since you should be too busy working to feed, clothe and house the 5 unnecessary mouths you brought into this world to enjoy such a luxury.
It’s those kids at the day care, or in the schools, or on the playground that come to me, with their eyes pleading for something I, and not anyone else can ever restore what was stolen from them…their daddy.
That’s whose feelings I care about.
I’m a f*ckin’ “People Person”.
